Wednesday 15 April 2009

the love of my life

The happiest day of my life - here with a few hour old Sean

When I came back from the hotel visit on Friday, after being away from Baby Bear for the night, I was hit by a feeling I had never felt before and it really overwhelmed me. I don’t think I understood just how much I had missed him, and the joy and love I felt once having him in my arms again, was indescribable. A completely new feeling for me.

The best part of my day is waking up to Sean’s beaming face, staring at me with his wide blue eyes, grinning from ear to ear as if to say, "Good morning. I've been waiting for you to come and pick me up, Mum". That smile can make me do just about anything for him. In just four and a half months, he has developed into this amazing little person with quite a personality, although he radiates this glow of innocence.

It still amazes me that he is mine. I still stare at him in awe as he sleeps, still a little surprised that Bear and I could create something that is so perfect. Those super sized blue eyes, those round plump cheeks with dimples showing when he grins. (where did they come from anyway? Neither Bear nor I have dimples!) How can my heart fill to bursting point just for this little person? Perhaps for carrying him those gruelling nine months?

Throughout my pregnancy, I often wondered what my baby would look like. When he finally arrived, it was as if I recognised him; although I couldn't possibly have known for sure what he would look like of course, but he somehow fit the image I had subconsciously carried inside me all along. And I can't imagine him looking any other way.

I may not have had as much time to myself as I did before Sean was born. And lately, as you might have noticed, I haven’t blogged much. But that is not because I don’t have the time. You see, I have trained myself to eat spaghetti, straighten my hair, hang the washing and put on make-up, all with one hand only.


I have learned to multi-task like never before (much thanks to my mother and her valuable help). I do have time. I have just chosen to spend it differently lately (not hours on end in front of my laptop anymore), mainly with the love of my life Baby Bear, (and of course with papa Bear too) ♥

2 comments:

Karlsebakken 37 said...

Det gör du rätt i - längtar så tills jag får min bebis i armarna och kan ligga i sängen och mysa också...! Tills dess njuter jag av alla sparkar och saltomortaler i magen, underbart att bara sitta och känna - får ett fånigt leende på läpparna varenda gång, haha!

Stor kram från ett vårigt Norge!

Karlsebakken 37 said...

Hej och tack! Tycker också väldigt mycket om min lilla mage - den är alldeles perfekt som den är nu! :)

Härliga bilder från USA och hotellvistelsen, ser så mysigt ut.

Ja, nu har vi äntligen bestämt oss för vagn efter många diskussioner om tre eller fyra hjul... Nu har vi landat på en Emmaljunga City Cross (för vikten!) med bag i Creme Leatherette (jag är kär i den!) och sittdel i marinblått. Ser fram emot att få hem den och så småningom få ta den ut på promenad med bebis i! :)

Är snart i vecka 21, var på ul igår och fick äntligen satt beräknad födsel som blir den 5. sep. Vi har däremot inte klarat få reda på om det är en pojke eller flicka. Antingen har bebisen rört sig för mycket, för lite eller - som igår - låg med benen i kors. Så nu har vi först fått besked om att det var en pojke, sen flicka och nu vet ingen egentligen. Verkar som om det får bli en överraskning i september helt enkelt! :)

Oj, det här blev långt - nu är det dags att lägga sig. Ha det så bra så länge, sköt om dig och dina pojkar!

Stor kram Caroline

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