the love of my life

The happiest day of my life - here with a few hour old Sean

When I came back from the hotel visit on Friday, after being away from Baby Bear for the night, I was hit by a feeling I had never felt before and it really overwhelmed me. I don’t think I understood just how much I had missed him, and the joy and love I felt once having him in my arms again, was indescribable. A completely new feeling for me.

The best part of my day is waking up to Sean’s beaming face, staring at me with his wide blue eyes, grinning from ear to ear as if to say, "Good morning. I've been waiting for you to come and pick me up, Mum". That smile can make me do just about anything for him. In just four and a half months, he has developed into this amazing little person with quite a personality, although he radiates this glow of innocence.

It still amazes me that he is mine. I still stare at him in awe as he sleeps, still a little surprised that Bear and I could create something that is so perfect. Those super sized blue eyes, those round plump cheeks with dimples showing when he grins. (where did they come from anyway? Neither Bear nor I have dimples!) How can my heart fill to bursting point just for this little person? Perhaps for carrying him those gruelling nine months?

Throughout my pregnancy, I often wondered what my baby would look like. When he finally arrived, it was as if I recognised him; although I couldn't possibly have known for sure what he would look like of course, but he somehow fit the image I had subconsciously carried inside me all along. And I can't imagine him looking any other way.

I may not have had as much time to myself as I did before Sean was born. And lately, as you might have noticed, I haven’t blogged much. But that is not because I don’t have the time. You see, I have trained myself to eat spaghetti, straighten my hair, hang the washing and put on make-up, all with one hand only.


I have learned to multi-task like never before (much thanks to my mother and her valuable help). I do have time. I have just chosen to spend it differently lately (not hours on end in front of my laptop anymore), mainly with the love of my life Baby Bear, (and of course with papa Bear too) ♥

Easter at the Crazy Bear

On Thursday we left Baby Bear overnight for the first time. Some time ago, we had arranged to have a romantic baby free night in a boutique hotel called Crazy Bear in Beaconsfield. Suitable name for us, but purely a coincidence!

Bear's Mum looked after him for nearly a 24-hour period. We were quite relaxed about it (note: we only called once in the evening and once the next morning to see that all was ok!), as with four children of her own and six grandchildren, she has plenty of experience.

The Hotel had no exterior signage and blacked-out windows, so it was almost as if the Crazy Bear does not want to be found. And that’s all part of its decadent exclusivity. Our room was very sultry and decorated to a very high standard incl black leather floors, high beamed ceiling, a large copper bath at the foot of the cosy bed and bathed in sexy dim lighting.

There are two restaurant - English and Thai, and we chose the latter as we both really enjoy that style of food. We had a night cap at the uber trendy bar and then we decided to see where all the locals were hanging out (as this is the area we will may move to once we eventually leave London). All in all we had a fab time and will definitely come back. The only downside was the early 11am check out time!

Sean's new outfit -1930's chic

night out with the girls

Last week's Swedish girlie night out. Here drinking champs and eating a selection of mezze a local Moroccan bar/restaurant. Clockwise from L to R: Sussie Jenny, & Sophie

Sean update: 8.2 kilos & 68 cm

Sean; The love of my life, will no doubt be tall like his dad



Mornin! Today we are up early to try and break the jet lag. It's been a while since I wrote about my darling Sean, so I thought to dedicate this post to him. He is now nearly 4 1/2 months and last week when Bear took him for some more vaccinations last week, they also weighed him. He is already 8.2 kg (and 68 cm long)!!!

Sean's playmate, who is more than 5 months older, only weighs 1 more kilo than Sean *help* :-) I think we can safely say those are Daddy's genes!

He is still only rolling over from back to tummy rolled over, and very often so. That has made nappy time interesting because he tries to roll over and escape mid-change. Read to explore the world! Now if he could just figure out how to crawl, he would be unstoppable!

He is laughing more now, rather than just smiling, and during the last couple of weeks he has started to suck his thumb. He has gotten very good at grabbing and holding things and wants to touch and pick up everything, which we practised a lot on Friday, when I for the first time went to a baby activities class.

The class in Gymboree which was held in Whiteleys, in nearby Bayswater, and is for pre-sitting babies. was recommended to me by another new Mum, Vivien, who also had a baby boy in the Lindo Wing, only days after me (and with whom I also went to on an ante-natal/prepare for birth course). On Friday was the fist time I saw her since we both were pregnant.

She and her son Oscar have been going to Gymboree for quite a while now, and after joining them there last week, we have now decided to sign up for more classes so that we can go there together every with Friday from now on.

On Thursday Bear and I will leave Sean overnight, for the first time (except when he was with my Mum so that I would get a proper night's sleep, but then we were in the same flat, under the same roof!).

Reason being is because with Easter coming up (Friday here is a national holiday) and with Alan's Mum is visiting from Scotland this week (and kindly offered to babysit), we are going away for one night only to stay in a newly opened boutique Hotel called Crazy Bear.

Hope you will have a funfilled week x

Re-acclimatising

Today we've been back from the US for one week, and still we are struggling (well mostly Baby Bear and I) with the jet lag. The seven hour time difference has meant that we sleep until 11am(!) and are laying awake at night not being able to sleep. I have decided to put the alarm clock for 7am as of tomorrow, so hopefully we have re-acclimatised towards the end of next week.

We did have a nice surprise waiting for us when we got home, in the form of a luxury hamper from British Airways. They had it delivered to us to apologise for the lack of a bassinet on our flight to Denver. It was full of yummy treats which will definitely come in handy as the summer approaches and we plan our picnics. See hamper below including pictures of some of the shopping I did over there.

The lovely wicker basket from BA

New on my bathroom shelf from America; Clinique lotion, Lancome Definicils mascara, MAC lipgloss, Victoria Secret 'slice of heaven' lipgloss, Ray Ban aviator sunglasses,and hair serum from AVEDA

More shopping: blue white striped hooded top, pink with green strips rugby style shirt, white v neck t-shirt, one pink and one black quilted jacket - all from Ralph Lauren

Top right corner:pinkish checked shirt/tunic with frills in the front from Walmart for the bargain price of $12.00




close-up of the gorgeous pink quilted RL jacket which I can't wait to start using

We're back!

Good Morning! Well, beginning to re-adjust to normal life again after getting back from the USA. We had a fantastic time and both mine and Bear's skiing improved a lot and we were glad that we eventually chose to go to Vail rather than Aspen. Vail was a fantastic ski resort and well deserves it's reputation as the best in North America.

We managed to find a great local baby sitter (called Mountain Sitters) who were able to take care of Sean and Freja, the daughter of our friends who joined us there.

Being there for two weeks gave us plenty of time to indulge in some of my other passions, such as sight seeing and of course shopping. (pictures of what I bought to be added in the next post).

We split our time between Boulder (a beautiful Colorado town where our friends live) and the mountains. We travelled between the two in our rented car (with a fitted babyseat), and enjoyed the breathtaking scenery as we drove around.

The weather went from beautiful spring sunshine to a complete winter 'whiteout' where when I could only see as far as the end of my skis (pretty scary). In fact, so much snow fell in the last few days that we became snowed in, couldn't travel and had to extend our stay by two days. Not too much of a hardship though, haha!

All in all, we had a truly wonderful time away and Baby Bear seem to enjoy his first long haul trip. We made a decision to go back to Vail next year and hopefully every year at the same time.

Now all I need to do is to recover from my jet lag - perhaps the girls night out ( with up to 5 other Swedish girlfriends) that is planned for tonight will help! :-) Who is baby sitting then? Bear of course! :-)